Monday, August 14, 2006 @ 8:32 PM
I ran. My legs were tired from the running. I wanted to stop running and face whatever that was behind me, but I couldn't make myself stop. I kept running. This is not the way, I thought to myself, but I still kept running.
I kept running. I don't know how long I had ran. I forgot the reason why I ran. Or rather, I forced myself to forgot the reason why I ran. Then, I slowed down, and I saw Him.
He said, I'm here.
I stopped running. Then I fell down and cried. He hugged me in His arms, and listened to me. He comforted me, and piggy-back me. I felt so safe on His back. I knew He was going to bring me through this obstacle. I knew I didn't have to be afraid of what's behind me.
Thank You, Lord.
I don't know who I am to you anymore. I thought we were, but then I'm not too sure. I know you won't initiate, and so I want to. But I'm so afraid to. Then things happened. I realised there was nothing I could do for you. I so badly want to do something for you, but I don't know how and what to do. I cried. Then He came in and comforted me. And I've decided: It doesn't matter who I am to you anymore. I'll still love you. I'll still be there for you. (: Jiayou, my dear sister, my dear friend. I know God will bring you through it all. (: